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In Krzysztof Kieslowski’s Three Colours: Blue, a woman, Julie, loses her husband and daughter in a car crash. After a failed suicide attempt while recovering in a hospital, she absconds from her former life and friendships. She also destroys an unfinished score her husband had been composing: a work written in celebration of European unity following the end of the Cold War.

But the perished score haunts Julie; and life’s intricacies and conflicts soon begin to draw her back in. At first, she tries to stop her husband’s former collaborator from recreating the lost music. In the end, she helps restore it. The film ends with the piece being performed. Despite her grief, Julie is unable to remain a ghost and exile inside her own reality.

Shortly after Brexit, I remembered the music featured in the film and its theme. It began stalking me, as it had stalked Julie.

Europe has meant everything to me. Poland joining the EU in 2004 allowed me to move to the UK and be with the person I love. Twelve years later, I’m still in love – and not just with the boy. I’m in love with this island.

Tomorrow, the UK begins its exit from the European Union. It is about to become a willing ghost and exile, a thing onto itself. I hang on to some hope that, like Julie, something – life, reality – will draw it back in.

But right now, I can’t think of anything else to say. I’m drowning in blue.

Link to the score